Watched 2 eps of friends yesterday which was damn funny.

Before I slept last night I prayed to Daddy God and asked him if what’s runing through my brain for the past few days (and now, also) is right, is what is meant to happen, let me dream again. Give me another dream that’s related. And apparently, I dreamt again last night, a dream I can remember. A dream that isn’t really vague.

Although I admit it was a short dream, somehow I don’t know what to think now. What is it that Daddy God has planned for me? I know that he has this awesome plan, but can I just get a tiny glimpse, pretty please with a cherry on the top? I dont wanna screw up friendships because of foolhardy hot-headedness or in the heat of the moment thing.

sighhh. I think I’m gonna drive myself insane or smth. :/

(/edit @ 6.15pm)

I really got no mood to do anything and my mind is only filled with ONE thing.

I just cannot wait for OP to be done, in that way I no need feel so anxious. I can sense a panic attack coming on. Panic about tmr’s OP. (what if i screw up?) Panic about everything that is in my mind.

Birthday’s on friday. (: Godsis wants to date me on sunday. wheeee. :D And if someone asks me what I want for my birthday? I don’t know. The things I want are really unrealistic. First on my list is _ but it’ll probably give me a heartbreak. One day, I’m not gonna be able to recover. Just gonna leave my heart in the pieces it already is in. Second on my list? ITOUCH! :D But the first one is the only thing I can think about.

I don’t know. It’s been so long since I thought of you that i don’t know what i want anymore either. I swore off relationships, i swear. But, my heart doesn’t listen to my head apparently. I can’t even concentrate on 脩, 五虎将 & 阿香! sighhh.

如果感情又激起来了呢？

如果我想你，都快要像疯了呢？

没有相思病，可是却是这么的想你，脑海里只有你。当看到你，却目不转睛。那我该怎么办？

不可以去告白。死都不可以。因为我知道，这样的我们，很可能关系变尴尬，变僵。那我才真的会后悔。

如果要问，我17岁呀的是什么，我可以说你吗？